Raggie,
I know from previous threads that you've got a new doctor and councilor, and dealing with public places and new people stresses you out. That makes meeting people difficult.
I had a very depressing time right after high-school where all my friends went away to college out of state and I never saw most of them again. I was working a miserable third-shift job stocking the freezer section at a grocery store, and I was commuting downtown to college during the day. Since I was living at home, and not the dorms, and working alone at night, I never met anybody. Even though we were all in the same house, I never saw my parents either. What made it worse was that I knew my old friends were living in dorms and meeting people and making new friends.
At the large college I drove to, I never saw the same people twice in my classes. This was way back in 1992, before anybody knew about the Internet, and I didn't even have online friends to talk with like we do here.
Being alone was bad, but feeling like there was nothing I could do to meet people and fix my loneliness was worse. I'm thinking that's what's bothering you.
Maybe you could ask your councilor if there are any groups or meetings for people with the same problems and challenges that you have? Joining a group like that would be scary, but if everyone had similar backgrounds, everybody ought to be nice, and no one should judge you. Perhaps you could help other people in similar situations that don't know as much about computers or the Internet as you do. That would give you a chance to make some friends in your area, or meet someone "special".
If you like that idea, make it a New Year's resolution to ask your councilor about it.