I've been there and it wasn't pleasant. I am generally a happy & optimistic person, but due to the verbal/emotional abuse towards the end of my marriage I found myself looking for any way to make the pain stop. I had lost my self esteem and hated my life. Finally I spent 3/4 of one night staring down the muzzle of a loaded Glock 29. My decision was that I am not the kind of person who would do that, and that it is a cowards way out. It hurts your friends and family. For me I spent some time trying to convince my wife things had to change. She told me things were not going to change. I flailed around a bit trying to save myself, made a few mistakes & we got a divorce. Fast forward a couple of years & my finances suck, and I miss having a partner, but I'm happy & look forward to life. I've gone through the absolutely worst time of my life, and things still are not great, but I will make it better through hard work & force of will. Just remember that no matter how bad things seem, they can and well get better. Make the best of difficult times & make yourself a stronger & better person.