Don't intend to bust your bubbel, but it's only equipment. No good reason to get worked up about it.
If it was a one of custom, or perhaps a 57 Chevy, yeah get worked up over it. Worst case, you can always buy another one.
That's why I don't get worked up about Ebay items. I buy what I want, and if the price goes too high, someone else can have it. I can wait.
Much luck with your fixation.
Been there and done that.
Later dude
Jack Crow in Iraq