ever think of takeing ya own life

please understand i wont do this.but i hate wakeing up any more i hate this world. i

Hey Raggie,
I think we may need to get you some help. It's not a very fun experience to feel that way all the time. Send me an email ([email protected]) and we'll get ya hooked up.

Raggie, you need to get some "real time" help man. We (the forum members) can only give you so much support. If you're having these feelings please go and see someone. I don't think anyone here on the forums is qualified to help you sight unseen.

Take Care Man,

Eric

Then it is time to change your life, not end it. Take control. If you live day to day, set some long term goals, go to school, learn new things, start a new career, colenteer to help others. The world is full of posibilities. Just don't sit there.

Also, I know money is tight for you. But I also know people that have money and they aren't happy. I know people that drive expensive cars but they are so stressed out and aren't the nicest people because tehy spend all thier time thinking about money.

Also depression can be caused by diet. Try eating less sugar and junk food and eating healthier. Serriously, diet affects mood. Try it for three days and see if you notice a difference.

And almost everyone goes through periods of depression. But I think oen of my sayings applies here. I say it doesn't matter if you make mistakes, it matters what you do abotu your mistakes. Same here, it doesn't matter that you are depressed, it matters what you do about it.

Another though, your mood is your choice. Nothing is forcing you to be depressed. I know peopel say things like, wow that is a lot of things going bad, you must feel depressed. But don't listen to them. Soem people can have a flat tire or have the refridgerator break and say how my life is so bad, or this is such a bad day, wekk, life. Others can have many bad things happy and still be smiling. They know it isn't that big a deal and this too will pass.

So something bad happens, you decide if you want it to ruin your day or not.

I could give mroe advice and go on, but this post is already long.

I have had many thoughts about getting out of this world myself in the past but I realize God has plans for me and even if they may seem insignificant to me at this time things do change. I find if you focus on yourself too much you can be your own worst enemy and make yourself miserable. Years back when I got sick and stayed sick for a long time I was feeling like I would never get well and wanted to end this life, then I looked at my mother who was suffering almost as bad but for a lot longer and was still doing things for me and I felt ashamed and realized I was a pretty selfish person. To make things worse my mom unexpectantly died one night and left a huge mess and I just had to turn off all my selfish thoughts and start digging in to clean it up.

If you ever heard of the saying an idle mind is the devil's workshop... well this is true, so I try to keep my mind full of anything but bad thoughts/ideas. This forum helps keep my mind entertained and giving my limited advice/ideas helps me feel useful.

You are useful here as you entertain people and you have more to offer than you give yourself credit for, so my advice is when you feel down.... lift everyone else up. When you feel like crying try making someone else laugh. It works for me a lot of the time because I then focus on someone else instead of myself.

just my 2 cents. This life is short enjoy it with others, don't hate it... alone.

Even when it seems like the end, it isn't - there are always so many more things that you can do. If you're even thinking about this and finding it difficult to get out of bed perhaps it's time you should think about seeing a doctor, preferably a shrink. It's not a good thought. I agree with what Eric M. said, there is only so much we can do, you need someone to intervene in person.

I recall you had a doctor who was taking care of you and your meds, why don't you speak to them? I think they would be *VERY* concerned to learn about exactly what you have said in your post, even if it is just one sentence. And they would be the BEST people to help you since they know your history and they know what they can do to make your life just that little bit easier.

raggie,

I remember the last time you posted this question in a thread with the very same name: ever think of takeing ya own life? and it worried me greatly then, and it worries me greatly now. If you look through the earlier thread, you will see my post, so I won't say all of the same things again.

Suffice it to say that YES, at one point in my life I thought a great deal on this subject and more than that.

raggie, what will help you? What can we do? Please tell us.

If you like, I can PM you about my own experience and how I dealt with it. If you ever want to email me or call me, let me know. Just send me a PM and I'll get back to you with a phone number or email. Heck, my email is posted in a couple places already, so why not here: [email protected]. No pressure or obligation, though. Just offering. I'd like to help if I can.

Anyway, I'm glad to hear that you started this post with "I wouldn't do it." Listen raggie, in my experience, it is normal and understandable to have these thoughts at certain times of your life. There is so much to be depressed about in this world.

But, also, there is so much to be joyous about, too. And this material world is only a veil and a covering between you and something more, something greater.

Things WILL get better, raggie. Just hold on, OK? Please.

The Meds Edd, what about the Meds???

I am pretty sure we all have thought about it at one point or another. I am also sure just thinking is all we do.

Hang in there man! We love you!

raggie,

I understand how you feel. The thought goes through a lot of people's mind. You took a great step in sharing this with us, and I'm glad to know you won't do it. Negative thoughts can be tough to deal with and overcome, especially in tough times like the ones you're going through. Be certain that this world is full, full of wonderful things that are worth living for and enjoying. The sadness you're feeling now will go away; it may take time, but you'll feel better. Don't let bad thoughts overcome you, fight'em back!! We all know you're strong and will fight this with all your might until these bad thoughts/feelings go away.

We'll help you and you also need to find someone close to your location you can talk to. Going to a specialist and/or a support group also helps some people. Try to get out and do different things, that helps me clear my mind. You can find some kind of occupation that will keep your mind busy on something else.

Like js said, things WILL get better!! You WILL feel better.

I don't like throwing out the Faith card, but maybe that's where you should try. I found a group of very supportive, and friendly people at the church I go to, and many churches have groups of certain ages for you to fit in with. I go to an Assembly of God church myself, and you can find support and friends there, if you have one in your area.

Also, seek professional help on the whole 'taking your life' thing. Not good to be thinking anywhere near those thoughts.

Sorry, but the faith card is exactly what you need raggie. Always remember that GOD loves you, he always has and always will. GOD never said life on earth will be easy, but he said that so long if you have faith in him he will always be there with you no matter what.

Now is the time to rely on GOD. GOD wants you to surrender your fears, your sorrows to him. Rely on GOD (the rock) to handle life's heavy battles, I do.

I will keep you in my prayers

With all due respect junior, although a religious component can definitely be important in helping an individual recover from depression, it is not the only solution. People are as variable as... well, people. What is *exactly* what someone needs may not be useful, or enough, for other people. It is good that you suggesting religion/God as possibly helping raggie. As Orion points out, it is also a possibility that raggie must consider.

The bottomline is we all want to help raggie 'cuz we know he's special, strong, and he can (and will!) feel happier again. Ya'hear me, raggie? We know you can do it, and you know it too.

Hi raggie,

I've been where you are. I even attempted suicide once, thankfully without success, although truth be told I got really lucky. I used to take the railroad to college and one day I had planned to throw myself in front of one of the 125 mph Metroliners which passed through the station where I waited for the local back to New York. I knew the approximate times the expresses passed through. The plan was to wait until it was almost in the station, then run from the platform to the express track so that it would hit me at full speed. I carried no ID that day to make it easier on my family. For all intents and purposes I would simply be "missing" since what would have been left would be unidentifiable. They would forever hope that I would someday be found I suppose.

Anyway, that fateful day the train was late. It came through at all of maybe 60 mph-not fast enough to guarantee the results I had in mind. I decided to wait for the next one. About an hour later I first saw the headlight looming in the distance, figuring it was maybe 2 miles out. That meant I had less than a minute to decide what I was going to do. By then I had lost my nerve and couldn't go through with it. I started getting physically ill. The train passed by just then at maybe 130 mph. Good thing I had lost my nerve or I'd have surely died instantly.

After that I never looked back and never actually attempted suicide again. Truthfully, the thought can and has crossed my mind many times. Even though my life hasn't been what I thought it might be, I stop and think of all I would have missed and I'm glad for the hand fate dealt me that day. I would have done it when that first train came if not for that fact that it was delayed and going too slow.

My point is that sometimes life will deal you a bad hand. Take it and move on. As long as you're alive things may get better. If you're dead they never will. And you only pass this way once.

Riggie,

Hang in there buddy.. Remember, life is hard, but it is wonderful and beautiful. The "mind" with about 10 billion cells is capable of incredible potentials, and it is your best friend and protection. I would suggest you should pick up some additional courage and see a friend or your doctor. Also, spend sometimes outdoor in bright light, heck, stare at the Lion Heart for 5 min in level 1 ( hee hee). Bright lights in the 460nm have anti-depressive properties according to research. /ubbthreads/images/graemlins/grin.gif

Raggie, whether one is a religious person or not, I think everyone can agree that life is precious. Hang in there. The world is indeed a crappy place and when life kicks you where the sun don't shine, you've got get back up, stare it in the face and keep on going. It's what builds character in an individual.

Remember that there is always a tomorrow and that you have the courage within yourself to make it a better day. Remember that everyday above ground is a good day and that it's not enough just to live, you have to live for something. Let that something be waking up to see the sunrise and making the most of each day. You'll soon see that it was all well worth it.

Rags... ya need to get back on your meds, my friend. If you left them at your sister's house, then you need to contact your doctor and get new scripts to take to the pharmacy. With new scripts and authorization from your doc, your insurance will cover them. Get back on your meds Rags... don't make me get the whip out... /ubbthreads/images/graemlins/icon8.gif

My life can be pretty crappy at times & I keep digging myself deeper into a hole too but I always keep in mind that if I out myself, there'll be people left behind who'll be more miserable as a result of my screw-ups than if I were still around, who won't understand or who will misunderstand. You may think it'll solve your problems but it actually just leaves them behind for others. Hang in there raggie.

Raggie, I don't know you from Adam, just what I read here on this site but obviously you hurt inside and that is probably normal and will pass if you let it. There are people to help with that.
1-800-784-2433 Call that number. Spend a minute on yourself and let someone help you. My wife has a little button pin that says it all. "God doesn't make Junk" Call them.

Hey man, stop it. What would we all do without the RagMann's posts? Besides, your mom is watching you right this very minute and you need to make her proud, to prove to her you can make it on your own!

BTW I know you are waiting on your dad or sis to drive you to pick up your meds, they do that yet? If not give me their phone numbers and I'LL MAKE SURE THEY DO - even if it has to be by local PD squad car!

You KNOW we care about you! We look forward to your posts and the smiles that you bring us! Don't hurt us by "leaving the party early"!! We have more laughing & good times ahead of us Edd!! PM sent...