Another concern... I've seen some regulars change from the way they were back in the day. Although change itself is not surprising, even in attitudes and personality. In every case, no one changed for the better. Some changed so much that you begin to wonder if we're not seeing their true personalities now, and just a front back then. Whether it's the countless modders who ended up screwing over other CPFers who were loyal to them, or just regulars that used to make CPF so enjoyable to visit. In some cases, it clearly wasn't a front. Something clearly happened but we don't know what it was. And that's fine. No member is required to divulge personal details of their lives. Especially not the ones that clearly effect them to a, in some cases, radical change in personality that couldn't be clearer if every member shined their brightest light onto it.
Thing is, as fellow regulars, they still continue to post. But the enjoyable, fun, funny, kind-hearted comments from them have been replaced with apathetic, depressing, and yes; even bitter ones. Those fellow regulars whom I've seen change, none were for the better. Yes, we do have some who are, Thank God, still the same as they ever were. Those are the guys who make CPF an enjoyable place to visit. Make it a real community. I'm glad those members are still around, especially since there are fewer of them here. They know who they are. I sometimes wonder if those members who changed, know who they are too.
I recently sent a PM to a particular member who made an off-hand comment about another regular. It reminded me of the warm and caring nature he had years ago. I distinctly remember one time when I posted when I wasn't feeling well. I posted something odd. Something to him that was concern-inducing. I remember clearly the sincere way he inquired as to whether or not I was okay. I appreciated his concern. When I look back on how he was just a few short years ago, and I think about the way he changed; I wonder to myself if that illness of mine took place today... Would he ask if I was feeling alright? And I'm forced to answer, "No." It bothers me. Perhaps more than it should. Okay, yes; more than it should considering that CPF is an internet forum... An internet community... A community. So yes, it bothers me. I made the mistake of telling my best friend years ago that I had store credit of about $50 at a big sporting goods store that was an Authorized Dealer for SureFire (Still is). And that I was considering using it with $450 to get myself a SureFire M6 that I wanted for awhile. He looked me in the eye and absolutely serious, told me he'd kick my *** if I bought a $500 flashlight. Bought it anyway, never told him, still have it. You guys understand why I bought it. You guys understand why I upgraded it with custom battery carriers to let it run on 3x17670s and bought new bulbs so I could run it on those 17670s. That's why this place is a community and that's why the changes in personalities bothers me.
You guys know me. I can't put on rose-colored spectacles and pretend everything is just as good as it was "back in the good old days." No matter how much I personally want to. My blatant honesty won't let me. (No surprise there.) I can't pretend that the fat, ugly, hairy naked man wearing a crown on his head and riding that big white horse through the crowd, is wearing a beautiful set of Regal clothes and robes.
I still have hope that things will get better. Mainly because thankfully Greta hasn't changed for the worst. Yeah, that's the main reason.