It's not an addiction, as the word flashaholic implies, although I can understand why people would see it that way - it's a
fetish. And I'm willing to bet that it's mostly males that suffer from this wallet draining affliction. It's like you can't ever be satisfied with what you've got - you're always looking for more, something more powerful, something that throws farther, something more dazzling - it's like ***** envy
:help:. Ok, I expect people are beginning to think "this bloke has lost the plot" so I'll leave off this topic, but before I do, I'd like to remind you that you collect torches too - and if that's not weird, what is?
I now have 14 torches, 5 more on the way and I'm still scouring the internet for more. I've bought a soldering iron, 3rd hand, and just about all the other tools and supplies needed for basic modifications. I have also purchased several LED's, drivers and torch hosts and I'm teaching my self electronics so that I can further indulge this strange fetish. Right now, I'm desperately struggling to resist the powerful urge to buy both the TN31mb and DEFT-X but I already know very well that I'm doomed to fail in this struggle - think I've got it bad. :sigh:
How did it all start? Well I guess it's something in my genes, or an unconscious traumatic memory that predisposed me, that made me susceptible to this fetish. The fetish was triggered when I acquired my first torch with a Cree LED in it. It was only a Led Lenser P7, but when I switched it on, it dazzled me - both literally and metaphorically - and my fetish was born.
I'm still trying to figure out exactly why I developed this fascination, this fixation, this obsession with LED torches - perhaps it's the way they light up the night, perhaps it's the way they feel in my hand, perhaps it's the sense of security. the sense of empowerment I feel when I power up my torch and cut through the night turning it into daylight. A torch is not just a torch for torch fetishists. It's a tool, a weapon, a companion, an object of fascination, even a phallic symbol and ... who knows what else.
Why do I collect torches? For all the reasons above and for other other reasons that might always remain a mystery.