What you feel at that moment is irrelevant in a court room, unless you can prove it, entire states court system will be against you, if you think jury are an understandable bunch and will look for truth or justice, you are sadly mistaken, 99.9% of the time they are bunch of people who often do not want to be there, and want to get home fast, they do not care about you.
Does not matter what cops have or do, they are a special class that will get away with anything 99,99% of the time, laws work differently for them, they are part of the same system, judges are on their side 100% of the time.
Of course I will be defending myself or my family, if I have to, but unfortunately in todays political climate in half the states, you are between an anvil and a hammer when you do, so i chose to know all obstacles, and navigate between them, cuz if you think you survived the fight you are out of woods , nope, your problems only began. state can take your life saving, job, your freedom, ruin your family's life. and in civil court you can lose everything you have, cuz that MF family, or himself will sue you, and if you have a conviction related to that defense, they automatically win. I have a lawyer in my family, who sees real cases every day, Court system needs convicts, it does not care about justice. I call it prison cartel, not a justice system, cuz cartel describes it much better. If you think every case will be similar to Kyle Ritterhouse, or Zimmerman, there is 99% it will go the other way.