fyrstormer
Banned
I've been keeping busy. My RC hobby is lots of fun, when things work of course. And my flashlight hobby provides good lighting for photos like this one:
I wish I could say it's all positive. Over a year later I'm still dealing with panic disorder, haven't found a medication to get it under control yet, and counseling hasn't made a dent in it. Some nights I'll fall asleep, then wake up a short time later with a godawful white-noise sensation running down my spine and radiating into the rest of my body. Biking is essentially impossible, because vigorous exercise gives me heart palpitations (the cardiologist says I'm perfectly healthy though) and my panic reflexes start taking over from there -- not a good idea to be moving at 20mph when I'm not sure if I can keep my balance (or stay conscious). And I'm still trying to sell an investment property that I very stupidly bought in early 2008 shortly before the economy crashed, and finding someone who's 1) interested in the house, 2) willing to make an offer that isn't insulting, and 3) actually able to get a loan from a bank, has thus far been impossible. 6.5 years of paying the mortgage on a house that's too far away to live in, and I've never been glad I own the place. I think if it doesn't sell by Thanksgiving I'm just going to auction it and hope for the best.
It's definitely not all negative either, though. I recently got promoted, my girlfriend lives with me now (instead of living an hour or more away in another city), I recently had a good talk with my mom about negative events in my childhood, what caused them, and how they affected me, and I've got my hobbies to keep me occupied in my off-hours.
Have I missed anything particularly interesting on CPF lately?
I wish I could say it's all positive. Over a year later I'm still dealing with panic disorder, haven't found a medication to get it under control yet, and counseling hasn't made a dent in it. Some nights I'll fall asleep, then wake up a short time later with a godawful white-noise sensation running down my spine and radiating into the rest of my body. Biking is essentially impossible, because vigorous exercise gives me heart palpitations (the cardiologist says I'm perfectly healthy though) and my panic reflexes start taking over from there -- not a good idea to be moving at 20mph when I'm not sure if I can keep my balance (or stay conscious). And I'm still trying to sell an investment property that I very stupidly bought in early 2008 shortly before the economy crashed, and finding someone who's 1) interested in the house, 2) willing to make an offer that isn't insulting, and 3) actually able to get a loan from a bank, has thus far been impossible. 6.5 years of paying the mortgage on a house that's too far away to live in, and I've never been glad I own the place. I think if it doesn't sell by Thanksgiving I'm just going to auction it and hope for the best.
It's definitely not all negative either, though. I recently got promoted, my girlfriend lives with me now (instead of living an hour or more away in another city), I recently had a good talk with my mom about negative events in my childhood, what caused them, and how they affected me, and I've got my hobbies to keep me occupied in my off-hours.
Have I missed anything particularly interesting on CPF lately?